Shining Garden

by Jeremy Ferrara

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Shining Garden was recorded to tape on June 27, 2017 in Gabe Poissant's bedroom studio in Ventura, CA. All music written and performed by Jeremy Ferrara.

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released August 10, 2017

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Track Name: Shining Garden
I'm taking comfort in the different ways we live
The ways we share our love
The ways we change, we've been
Because I see that same child, same as he ever was
And I see those hung up days
Deep in that hole I dug
And I saw my days go by
I saw an airplane
I saw your crying eyes
Your unforgiving shame

But I got friends so far away
I want to shade their sorrow
I want to multiply my heart and send it off in waves
Because all I am I owe to them
All my working pieces
There's nothing that I wouldn't give to be all coming home again

So you can spend your days
7 billion ways
7 billion worlds
I'll still love you the same
Ya you can shake it up
Or you can play it safe
Ya you can sing along
Or you can hide away

But I can't help seeing it all change
Gone with the wind in seconds
Gone like our youth, a stone you threw
A little summer blessing
But that's with everything I guess
That's the world we're givin
That's a constant you can't choose anything else

So tell me child are you living free
Are you that shining garden?
So tell me child are you giving love
The way it's meant to be
The way it's meant to be
Track Name: Ourselves
I give you so easy what I can't seem to give myself
An okay for love to help
A voice that's free from doubt
Because you're a wonder, you're a pillar of my psyche
You're one thousand poems about me I've been waiting to read
You took my worries ya, you turned them into freedoms
You changed me like a season I've been waiting to have
You're like a story I can hear it told through me
If I make it to that ending, I think we all might be let down
So let's keep this going, keep it honest, keep it true
Keep this knot from coming loose
Keep this needle to the groove

So come on and shine a light on me baby
Another night spent traveling on
Because to be honest, I'm still scared of that darkness
That covers me in all that I might know

So I'll come crying, I'll come laughing, I'll come whole
In a cold rain thunderstorm finding shelter at your door
Because what we need it's nothing constant I know it's changing
Like morning thoughts rearranging and we treat them all the same
I can't believe that we believe in such strange things
And perform that they are sane things that everyone's got to do
A broken bat in an empty patch of grass
Summer came and then it passed
Like the weather, like cold facts

So come on and climb this mountain with me baby
And try not to come tumbling back down
So come on and sing this song with me baby
To the feeling that keeps our hearts dancing on

So lets all belong to the words of a song
Because I think, I think we're free if we all dare to be
A little bit more easy on ourselves
Track Name: Afraid to Say
I'm not coming home in a silly long time I'm afraid to say
I've lived and I've learned I'm afraid to say
My pages have turned I'm afraid to say

And I won't be fine, I won't be good
Or anything you swore I would
But I'll be that dimple in your feigned smile
And I'll cash my check when I receive it
And I'll sing my song when I believe
And I'll make my tea every evening
As I pack it up, as I pack it in
From the beginning to the end
And watch it circle back again
With a whole new look a whole new face
Some jumbled meaning I can't trace
Some far off, never could be fate

I'm not coming home in a silly long time I'm afraid to say
I've lived and I've learned I'm afraid to say
My pages have turned I'm afraid to say

Because I don't know how far this can go
Without a finish line
But give me time so I can deny that I can forget it all

I'm the luckiest kind of kid
Depressed in love with all of it
I lay my head back down every morning
Where your voice will be my memory
I sing and dance to in my dreams
I fall asleep to with my screams
I am not one to pick a fight with
Anything I'll live my whole life with
Or anyone I spend tonight with
It's a charm that I never agreed to
But I'll use it if I need to
And try and find something to teach you

I'll be coming home in a silly long time I'm afraid to say
Once I've lived, once I've learned I'm afraid to say
Once my pages have turned I'll be on my way
Track Name: Lonely
It's always one drink too many or it's one drink to few
And come the morning it's always what did I do
Ya what did I tell you
I think it might have been the truth
Ya I think it was the truth

But here's for the lonely that lay in bed under the weight of something else
Because everything is so much bigger than ourselves
We can all get crushed
I know I got crushed

Ya it's a strange thing the way we all get used
Ya it's a funny thing to believe in abuse
Of all those pretty things that keep us far from the blues
Ya am I far from the blues
Or is that just what I'm telling you?

But here's for the lonely that lay in bed under the weight of something else
Because everything is so much bigger than ourselves
We can all get crushed
I know I got crushed
Track Name: Cities with Life
Take me away with that angel face
You know I'm losing sleep for it
Because you know I'm trying to see anything but this
Take me away so far away
You know I'm looking for the ride
Because you know I'm trying to be anywhere but here

Today I'm alive without you by my side
You can put that on the books
And there's still stars in the sky and cities with life
And they won't miss me when I'm gone or drag me along

So I'm taking that train, it's on its way
I'll be gone come the morning
Because it's a ways away to where I'm looking to be going
But as for what's left of you that's left in me
I don't think I'll be using
Because you know a heart can break, it always breaks
And no one can fake it

Today I'm alive without you by my side
You can put that on the books
And there's still stars in the sky and cities with life
And they won't miss me when I'm gone or drag me along
We'll be draggin along
Come on drag me along
Track Name: Two Rooms
Two room two feet too far apart
In a house to small to house its heart
Or hold in all the light it makes
Needs a kitchen wall of glass to let some escape

When half my life fit in between a leather book
Plastic compact discs you can have a look
Blue, Freewheelin' Bob Dylan
That Shame, Shame b-side it made me cry again

But it's okay, you can change your name
But in the morning I'll be singing you to sleep
Until there's nothing left to say
The day took you away but maybe night can bring you back
An easened heart attack
The way it always did

Well if it's all in how you look at it
Maybe there's truth in myth, maybe this photo's not my past
But just a bunch of light that rearranged
To convince my brain that nothing's changed
But I know it has, that's everyday
That's a crashing wave, that's a moving train
That's a child's eyes imagining
That's the kind of pain only love can bring
That's a flightless bird
It's all you see
That's a shooting star
That's you and me

But it's okay, I can change my name
But in the morning you'll be singing me to sleep
Until there's nothing left to say
A cloud took me away but maybe light can bring me back
An easened heart attack
The way it always did